Angry.

I got really mad the other day, to the point that I scared myself. I was online with Julia, and she's probably the only reason that I didn't do something stupid. That day it seems, was a drop in the bucket... I'm so mad right now, I don't know how much I can type my hands are shaking so. What I'm mad at is personal, and frankly none of your business, so don't bother asking. If you know already, then you know... and you were meant too. If not... then I don't know you. I just need something to vent to, and Julia had to leave, so here we are. I don't know how much longer I can stay here, this town is turning me into a person that I don't want to be. I feel trapped here, suffocated almost by somewhere that I truly don't want to be, were it not for my daughters, definately wouldn't be. Am I a bad person for wanting to move away from my daughters? Would I be a responsible parent staying close them, and having my soul get darker and darker, to the point where I wouldn't want to be around them anyway? I'm literally to the point where I want to throw my shit in a bag and start walking... I dont care where anymore, I just want out of here. The only thing keeping me sane right now is my daughters hugs, Julia's smile, and my friends on Comms... who are always there 24/7.

But I have to leave soon... otherwise I'm going to be a changed man, and I was just starting to like the man I had become.