Random Thoughts - from my mind tornado

So much has gone on in the last two weeks. If it had happened a few years ago, I probably would have snapped and seriously hurt someone, or tried to go base jumping without a parachute. So many thoughts rolling around in my head its hard to keep them straight... but every once in a while, one will pop out and and I can focus on it for a few mins. I wont focus on my problems in this blog, I'm tired of thinking about my problems. So I'll discuss some things that I know that I will be drug into eventually, involving my family. My little sisters husband told her he didnt want her OR his children anymore a few monthst ago. My father called me right after my sister did, told me to calm down and not do anything stupid, that he would handle everything. They worry about things like this since I beat my other sisters husband with a golf club a few years back. (He hit her and he deserved everything he got.) Anyway, my Dad came down, loaded all her stuff up in a U-Haul and took her and her two kids to live with him and my stepmom. They stipulated that she had to get a job and help keep the house clean, no problem. Fast forward to a few days ago when my grandma calls me and tells me that they are kicking my sister(Heather) out and that she is coming to the beach to live with my grandparents. Apparently the reason that she is getting kicked out is that my stepmother got tired of listening to babies cry and that she had just had surgery on her back and she didnt think that she could handle having the kids there while she recovered. In my opinion she just didnt want them there because the doctors took her off her morphine perscription that she's been on for the past six months. I was on morphine for five days once, and the withdrawals that I had kept me in the hospital an extra four days... so I can only imagine the hell that she is going to endure. But still... it ticks me off really bad, that Heather followed their every instruction, and still gets the boot. Now she has to relocate, find a new job... start all over again. It can be a hassle, I know, I've done it plenty of times... and it is never fun. I feel sorry for her, because I know that my father and stepmother will feel justified in their decision to kick her out, because nothing that any of us kids have ever done has ever been good enough for them... they are tough love parents, but sometimes I think they take it a little too far, and my sisters dont exactly have the amount of self confidence that I do. I know how bad that my sister is hurting right now, and it hurts me that I cant help her. I usually, no... I ALWAYS stay out of family drama because I think its just petty bullshit, and thats the main reason that I rarely talk to my family anymore, I dont feel like fending off their repeated attempts to drag me into their bullshit. But I dont know if I will be able to hold my tongue on this issue, and I know that I will get dragged into. My grandmother has already told me all about it from my sisters side, and I just got done listening to a voicemail from my Dad... this was it, verbatim:

"Son, this is your Dad. I'm sure you've already talked to Granny. Gimme a call, we need to talk."

I'm really wondering wether or not I can hold my tongue, because I know that I'm going to call and he's going to start the conversation by airing his list of grievances with my sister, and I desperately don't want to get in this, but I will say something if he starts in on the topic. On the flipside of all this, my Dad and I get along fairly well, its more of a grudging respect thing than anything else, and if I dont call him, then that puts our truce to an end. I would rather not have that happen, but I feel it may be the lesser of two evils at the moment. It always seems that my family is on the verge of splintering apart, one day I think it will. The shitty thing is that I'll have ringside seats, but I wont get involved. And it will break my heart.